The World's a Blur

By my own personal determination, repeated failure can shatter dreams and goals like no other. While I am aware that this is quite common knowledge, it always feels different when you experience it yourself. In this matter, I am probably stupid. I think I will continue on with my studies as if my studies were going excellent. I think at this point, however, I am going to need an action plan if I want to satisfactorily pass all of my classes at the end of the semester. I am now absolutely determined to do well, as I have a good chuck of change invested in this and I don't have the money to turn back now. If that means I make an ass out of myself, well, then so be it. I have much to do tonight. Principally among my tasks are working on my lab report and doing the entirety of my stats assignment, which is due tomorrow. I have Safewalk from 5 - 8 tonight, so I have my work cut out for me. I can't wait. I am hoping that it clicks with me and it goes fast, but if it does not, then God help me. I am in for it. I am aware that many of you would like to see some more pictures on here, which I am working on, but that kind of stuff is on the back burner while I assess (and cry) over my current scholastic situation. It's a war now, and I've lost the first salvos -- there's no time for a vacation now. I got my organic chemistry midterm back today, and found out that I scored 9% below the class average. Something has to give here, and it is not going to be my ego. Now that my grades are universally low, now is the time to figure out what to do about it. Any suggestions? I am dying to hear about them (maybe literally). Send me an email. You can get my address from my contact page. Adios.